Tuesday, November 23, 2004

let me take a moment;

to tell you how much I simply adore this child.

Sunday, November 21, 2004


This magic bullet is pretty cool, my mom made me watch the 20 minutes infomercial with her but let me tell you - it was WELL worth it. Plus, I think she's totally going to buy me one. It's incredible AND it's every kitchen appliance I'll ever need except a toaster. It's so exciting.

If I could just get my scanner to work I could finish my new site all together and then this blogger deal will be done. Others are also as glad as me to get away from blogger. And yes, it really is that bad. What mdae it worth it was that it was free, but now even that's not enough.

I've got to be careful about this next part or this could turn into a real 'feelings' kind of post, and I don't like too much of that mushy stuff.

Actually.. nevermind the feelings stuff I'll save that for another time.

Maryjane's got so many new stories and stuff that she wants to share, but nothing can get done without scannerpower. And Corinna's gone until like tomorrow night or something, which means... monday at the earliest I can start. But a lot of the stuff I already scanned is totally done.. The blog is all set up and ready to be posted on and stuff and my bio section is almost totally done. I haven't even started thinking about the photo galleries and I like it better this way. Save the hardest thing that will probably never actually get done until last, otherwise I'd give up before I got anywhere with anything else.

I have other stuff I could be telling you about, but I just don't feel like it anymore - so I'll just tell you how good the banana-hookup is. It's really good, take my word for it.

Friday, November 19, 2004

Going on and on...;

It's finally getting somewhere.

By tomorrow the blog there will be totally set up, because as of now it's only partially set up and then I can stop using blogger forever.

That means, that tomorrow, or whenever I actually post the link, you can stop coming here and I will too. AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THAT MAKES ME :D

I have to say, it's really coming along.. I don't know where it's going, but we're certainly getting there. Just getting started was hard, but now it's full speed ahead.

Of course this is really just the beginning of a really major ongoing project, ( something in my house just made a really weird noise... it sounded almost like someone hitting a sword into a small dagger :X ::briefly fears for life > resumes posting::) oooohhh boy. What have I gotten myself into. Just WAIT until I try getting the photo gallery together. OR when I try and sell stuff that should be really good.

Stay tuned!

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Blogger's newest trick!;

None of the images load anymore on my computer.. who knows how they load on your computer... It's almost over.

Real progress, I must say. I'm supposed to be uploading things like mad right now, but me and Maryjane had a heated bananafest just shy of 10 minutes ago, so.... I'm getting to it. (:

It's going to be the best everything all on one website you've ever seen that I've made. I forget the rest. The end.

P.S. the photo gallery stuff is going to take forever because um.. I just realized that mostly all of my photography was ... Well I do have a lot of it still and some stuff here I can scan and.. I.. well I have a camera so I'll just take new ones. Eventually. After I do everything else I need to do. (my list grows every day.. and I hardly ever cross anything off; it's terrrrrrible)!!

Monday, November 15, 2004


I'm sick, and it's stupid. The good news is I have plenty of Silver Water so I am actually going to take Lawrence's advice and drink 1qt a day. I should be better tomorrow.

The good news is I didn't go to work today, so that's always fun. I get to actually do stuff that's worth spending time on like this post, going to the park to swing by the water and cleaning up my room some more (it's really just getting rid of all the junk, and there sure is a lot of junk.. eehk) and other very exciting things like taking a shower and putting away laundry. You know you're jealous, it's ok.

Absolutely NOTHING has happened with the "new" site. I told you it was just a nice thought. Another one of my 'good' ideas that has and almost never will become anything more than that. It's ok though. (well not really).

but look! Alas I'm not alone!!!!

Maybe it will turn out ok, but.... I don't think so.

Friday, November 12, 2004

I don't really know...;

what's going to happen with all of this stuff.

I'm sick of worrying about people who don't care, about themselves, about me, about anything that's happening in their lives. It's just added heartache that I don't need. Am I a freak or something? Way too over-sensitive maybe? But I can't stop thinking about them (there are a few), and it makes me feel terrible to see it (and I do see it). They're all on a downward spiral and some of them know it, but it's like it doesn't matter, even when they say that it's bad and they feel bad and they don't want to feel bad. It's still all about attention, because when it really comes down to it they never make the changes and so they go on down down doooowwwwwwnnnnnnnnnn and I'm waiting to see which is going to hit the ground first, and I don't know why or how to stop it but it's taking it's toll on me. I'm sick to my stomach thinking about what they spend their days with, what their lives are made up of, what's important to them.

I don't know if this is ever going to get done. Everything is going so slow, it's all taking way way too long. I want to give up, but at the same time.. I know that it's possible with patience, and it's becoming much more of a challenge than a hobby. But so, that's kind of cool, right? I haven't had any challenges in quite some time it might be good for me to try I don't know, but I don't think I should give up just yet?? This post was a lot more serious than I really ever wanted but at this point? Whatever? I don't know... there's too much going on at one time. Maryjane wants to play a game with me, so maybe I'll do that. She's pretty good at lightening up the mood... except, well nevermind that. She's been good. Let's give it a shot.

That's it, that's all there is, there isn't anymore. So, goodnight.

it'll be ok;

I think I've solved my problem. I think I've got a few really neat ideas for the layouts of this new site. I think I'm pretty excited about it.. I think it could actually work this time, for real. I think if I make it through all of these obstacles and actually get the whole thing online the way I want to, I should be just fine.. I think.

It's just really hard to be constantly working from 4 different computers.. arrrg.

And from two different houses... mmph..

BUT, I think it'll be just fine in the end. If we ever reach the end..

I think I'm going to be getting my computer soon. My very own, no one else is ever laying a hand on it computer. we'll see

Bye, it's work time.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

I think I've got it;

This just might work.

I'll give you a tease, get a taste (a very small taste).


Looks like I haven't forgotten all of it after all, and I think I may have come up with a solution to the over-sized scanner scandal.

Stay tuned for more as the night goes on.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

OK so...;

First of all, I don't know what's going on with those pictures down over there, every time I look at this thing from a different computer they are totally different looking... THANKS BLOGGER! ;D!!

Second, don't even ask about Banana festing.

Blogger is terrible, terrible; and almost as bad as my computer, which will not allow me to connect to my new ftp server to upload my new pictures and things for the new site. I can't do anything with this thing. I can't really put things where I want them... I ... can't really make more than one page.. I can't post pictures the way I want to.. I could go on and on. To sum it up though, no more blogger.

I'll be done with the new site in an estimated two-three hundred million days.

So I'll post the link here when it's done hahah.

Other than all that nonsense stuff, Maryjane is in town and man I forgot how much I've missed having her around. I mean.. she's totally nuts, just ask anyone who's ever met her (not many people but I'm sure they'll all agree).

I have a checklist of things to do, that I really can't forget and everything MUST get done:

1. find everything for greymatter.
2. get cuteftp or some other program actually working.
3. begin writing my html.
4. bring over-sized scanner to Corinna's house.
5. scan layout images using over-sized scanner at Corinna's house.
6. upload and organize images scanned using over-sized scanner at Corinna's house using cuteftp or some other program which is now actually working.
7. along with the html which I have now finished writing.

Oh yea, insert 4b. hardcore finish all the stamping because it seems that each image needs some stamping and I've saved it all for one stamp-a-thon.

1. find everything for greymatter.
2. get cuteftp or some other program actually working.
3. begin writing my html.
4. bring over-sized scanner to Corinna's house.
4b. hardcore finish all the stamping because it seems that each image needs some stamping and I've saved it all for one stamp-a-thon.
5. scan layout images using over-sized scanner at Corinna's house.
6. upload and organize images scanned using over-sized scanner at Corinna's house using cuteftp or some other program which is now actually working.
7. along with the html which I have now finished writing.
steps 8-27. go through and make everything actually work.
steps 28-53. get all my photography in order and some kind of gallery online again using the over-sized scanner at Corinna's house and uploading using cuteftp or some other program which should still be working.

I think I'll save steps 28&on, plus the rest of the list which I didn't bother putting up yet because my brain is already ready to explode on to the screen and I'm not at home so I would feel just awful leaving a gooey-brainy-explosion-type mess. That's just how I am.

Oh yea did I mention I'm at work.. and I have work, all the time, twice a day, even saturday.. Well only once on saturday but still. It's just too much work. Once I make a bunch of t-shirts then you can all buy them and then I can quit at least 1 1/2 of my jobs. At least.

Now to get back to work, I think the dog needs letting in...

Tuesday, November 09, 2004


I am going to start with the setting up of the new site in about ::checks watch:: 20 minutes.

It's a full fledged, all out, till you drop BANANA FEST.


I found a picture which I like for now. >>

This is what I do at work. I play with these cool little magnet mirrors and use the copy machine to make the best quality colour copies. And a job well done.

I posted some new photos over there. And in the next few days expect this to be over and a new site to be in progress. Seriously. I've been working hardcore on the layouts and it's so much fun! But I'm going to be so serious about it and I'm going to sell stuff and all that jazzy stuff. T-shirts especially. Other fun things also. You'll see.

Um.. I have cutting to do, and gluing.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

long weekend;

But it's finally over. Drove up to connecticut to visit Paul and Ryan, and the Bishop was there and that was really cool and stuff. Except for getting stuck in 45 minutes of traffic on the Throggs Neck brigde... which made me late, that I could have done without. But everything else was more or less really good. It was good to see them, even though Paul is still Paul, and I don't know if that's ever going to change but I can definitely say he's getting better. How much better is questionable, but better none the less. I didn't get lost at all or anything, which I was a little nervous about driving myself and all.. but I actually didn't even have to look at the directions on the way home... I mean, if you just read the signs you'll be fine, I've finally realized that's what they're there for...

Yesterday I was bored and so I drove myself out to Avalon, that was nice. Took a few pictures which are nice, which I will probably post tomorrow, or never.

I'm going to be moving, yes that's right, I've found a domain to be my temporary home, to get a real site set up the way I want... and then eventually when I suck up all her space, I'll end up getting my own set up. ( ha ha just kidding (; ) But I will get my own set up eventually. I know it.

I'm going to go... make some pictures and stuff for the *new* and better than everything layout. WOO

Friday, November 05, 2004

excuse me (again);

While I try and make this thing like 12% better... I'm almost about to buy a domain and get a server set up. I'm getting closer and closer everytime I think about maybe doing something with this site and than I remember that it's blogspot. Well I won't complain too much more... probably not anyway.

Bush is our president? Woo. Hoo. No one seems to realize it was Satan vs. Satan lite this time around and that the one world political agenda will be accomplished no matter what name they put in the hot spot. It's just a little more out in the open with Bushy-cakes. Stop crying and get a t-shirt.

So I'm probably going to just post a whole load of pictures.. they'll be listed under recent photos because I'm very limited with this blogspot blahblahblah here I go again. We'll all get over it I'm sure. None of these pictures (well maybe some) are really recent, they just are to you because you've probably never seen any of them before. So go ahead and check them out, and if you want to buy me a new camera because mine took a turn for the worst, go right ahead. I like canons the best. I had a wonderful little AE-1, but.. like I said.. you can go ahead and buy me a new one (digital this time). I might start setting up a domain this evening, but don't take my word for it. I wish it was free. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those, 'always looking for a free ride,' types, but it doesn't hurt to try and get the discounted rate, ya know?

I'm not home but I WILL post more pictures later. Or tomorrow. Or next week.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004


I don't know anymore whether it's a bad thing or a good thing, many people have gone either way with this, but I definietly care way too much. And what makes it worse, is a lot of the time... I care about people who don't even like me..... I must work on this..

I don't know how true this will stand, but I decided not to put up photography much here because it makes the page load really really really slow.... and of course I can't make a nice little section for it or something because this is blogger and you don't do things like that. but I decided to post a couple for good measure, hopefully someone will just love them and decide to give me a shot in the dark and HOST ME PLEASE. Ehm... (yes I am that desperate to get away from blogspot)

Seriously, just let me know.

Monday, November 01, 2004

I hate;

your pagan holiday.

One too many fat albino looking women yelled at me to slow down with very rude hand gestures while driving, very peacefully, only about 7mph over the speed limit, while her little kid posioned itself in a pretty 20$ spandex witch costume. See the car, move out of the street kids, it's been the same routine since I was your age. Not rocket science.

What a waste of time all this is.

Anyway I really don't like blogspot, blogger, livejournal, myspace, etc., whatever. It's all the same and it's boring. You can't do whatever you want with the page, you can't have as many pages as you want for as many things as I want, I can't put pictures anywhere.... unless- ofkjdaly forget it. Just HOST ME. ANYONE... well not anyone, but SOMEONE GOOOD! Please..? I will bake you cookies and mail them to your home... with a nice thank you note... and.. uhm I'll make you a pretty picture. There you know I totally won you all over. So tell me you want me on your domain and we'll start the bidding already.

I also totally lied and didn't post lots of things just lots of pictures of one thing. I got a little confused with all the blogspot rules and regulations on trying to post a very simple picture. Not to mention they all came out bad.

I'd really like to make a real nice layout and put lots of pictures onto this "website" but unfortunately...blogspot doesn't allow that sort of "web-creating." No no, this is a strictly fill-in-the-blanks-and-just-try-and-sound-good-and-spell-correctly-and-we'll-do-the-rest sort of free hosting site (and you even have to put in the date yourself.. how lousy. I don't know that it could really get much worse) . Whatever happened to envy.nu? Anyone remember that one like... what? ::counts:: 8 or so years ago maybe.. that was it. we need envy.nu and virtue.nu was the other one.. where did they go? ::checks::

The end.